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Sunday, September 09, 2007 9:50 PM

you used to be the reason, for my smile.

now im working u ppl ask me to quit.
in the past when im going for band practices u ppl ask me dont join them.

my QUESTION is:
why all the things which i enjoyed doing you ppl want me to leave it at the end of the day?

and if im doing nothing and start using the computer, there you go again.

u request me dont work to accompany him.
ok fine.
but are you giving him the chance to learn independent?
you need me to help him with his work now cos i'm not around at home during the day.
why cant he do and TRY it himself?

must we keep "giving in" to him all the time?
not in the sense that let him step over our heads or tell him off every now and then.
but its time we ppl should learn to let go and LET him discover certain things himself.
i CANT be there 24 hours to help him out forever.

and please i dont think by helping him do his homework is HELPING ok.
he seriously should learn to TRY.
and yes the word is to TRY.

things like this.
homework given a week ago.
obviously is a big assignment and common sense tells that it needs to be broken down into chapters by chapters. and now u are rushing like a mad cow.
and at the end of the day i am to finish it for you.
WTH?

tell me how to talk to you can.
what happen today is already enough for a big boy like you.
all of us are trying to be patient but you simply cant be bothered.
ppl asked me to stop bothering too.
but can I?
esp when you ppl asking me doing useless this-and-that stuff for him?

even to the extent of quitting my job for him.

come'on. i dont think i need to explain everything on how i feel.
and i guess you should be able to understand me instead.
but i think im wrong.
cos you ppl are not putting me into the picture but HIM.

he has become the center of "attraction" while i guess im jus another person to play along with with you ppl to handle him and his problems as well, and not a person whom you ppl once cared for.

im not saying i unwilling to help.
but its simply not the way i guess.
you ppl simply know my attitude towards him and apparently tell me that you are touched whatsoever.
but till now it doesnt seem so.

i dont seem to know all of you now.
for once i didnt feel like asking questions about him or talking to him.
or even calling back home.

i admit going to work-
gets me out of all those nonsence at home.
because i think you ppl dont know how to control emotions at times and thus the quarrels.
why should i be there to hear them and then start to make my side for who is the right and reasonable one.

i wanna get out.
i wanna cry.
but can I?

rubbish place.

byebye