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Tuesday, May 01, 2007 10:01 PM

you used to be the reason, for my smile.

had lesson ytd..wad to sae..
lesson was as usual.. but i guess i discovered something..
that is..

in everybody's life there is the darker side of it, and not everyone will get to know of it..

it appears ok everytime i step into ur house and it seems to be a perfect one.. but after hearing de things u shared with me since young till now.. i was jus.. lost for words i guess.

although u are the least person i would expect to hear such stories about yourself.. but seriously i feel.. sorry for you? am I? i didnt expect to know jus from normal chatting with you tat could later bring such a happening story for you to tell me.. maybe i was jus too nosey at that time to make you sae out wad i thought it shouldnt have been said. wan to apologise if i have made u think back of the sad times..

i guess so.. cos i cant explain de kind of mood i had later on after lesson. its jus emo i guess.. i dont understand and i cant believe. that u are actually much much STRONGER in character than i have thought. and it did make me understand why u can be so strong and firm and confident without hestitations in everything you do..

i've not been a good student and sort of giving attitude i guess.. but still you shared with me.. ur yi qian de happenings.. which i really really didnt wanted to know if i know tats de childhood you had... which i didnt expect u would share such personal things with me to such an extent.. and i was sure..thats de limit i guess.. i say i appreciated it.. i cant expect anymore personal from you because i dont think i deserve it.. with my attitude like this..

you surprised me yesterday.
you really make me feel lost of how to continue the conversation with you.
seriously.

for once i really really really..
admire you?
although i dont really understand everything u have said..
but i will try my best.
to not to disappoint you.
i hope.

byebye
you amazed me by not breaking down.. still keeping so strong and firm while talking.