Sunday, September 28, 2008 3:54 PM
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
church in the morning and back at home.
had prayer together with the psle mums as well as their children, including him at around 1030. proceeded on for 2nd service when the session was over.
somehow as i look back and still going through the process of all these events, i just felt that God has been showing the way for us. this is something that just come upon me. He sends people to to guide us and keep us along together, guide us in our walk with Him. Earlier on after service was over, this aunty whom i've just get to know through the prayer session, came to me while i was looking for my cell leader for something. Together with my mother, 3 of us, we again spoke of his situation. Through so many days, so many months, i can say we have been approached, we have been looking and asking around, who can we look for in the church for the kind of help we need. People whom we get to know through joining cell groups, disciplinary classes, baptism classes, weekend encounters, doing cp work tgt, deliverance and such, they are always there, helping and keeping us in prayer. From there i realise: we are never alone.
When we came to know Jesus Christ, we realise that christianity is not just any other religion or beliefs. Because of that dream that i had that particular night, i affirmed that it is impossible, impossible for me to go back to the past. it was totally a whole different thing, a whole different feeling. From days to weeks and to months of absence, i wouldnt have persisted till now, to keep him going on. My inner voice tells me that its He who gives me strength, that is with me all the time. When the 3 of us talked, she did mentioned about how i did being a sister. It was really God's strength that kept me going all this while, not giving up despite of the mess at home. Her words spoke to me deeply because she knows how i am feeling. Perhaps this is another way of how God work in our lives, sending people along the way, to come to you, to help you overcome what you have. i get to know her for only less than a few hours yet she left me with such a deep deep impression.
CPS 9 ended yesterday. SP shared about God's calling for the church. Testimonies have shown that many lives were transformed through the cp work that we do. Many came to know God and not only them, but also their families. After it ended my mind didnt stop thinking and thinking. Occupied by what the whole session had taught, i suddenly just wanted very much to see it happening in my life. It may be my first time attending but it certainly enriched me in many things. About the poor and the needy, those that were of much more need than us. Like what uncle lawrence had always tell us, magnify the Lord, so that all our problems will seem small. I finally understood. I remembered what james shared when yingzi asked about God's will. He said that we cannot know if by doing this is His will, but its through experiences, looking back, you will then know that this is the way that God has pathed for you. Even if you choose the do it another way, if thats God's will for you, He will always find ways to bring you back to the correct path. It is so true.
I really thank God for bringing us to this church in hougang, for SP, our cell groups and cell leaders, brothers and sisters who have been showering us with their care and concern for our family. Thank God for uncle lawrence speaking to me during break time, about studies, about life and how i can actually survive outside. He mentioned IQ vs EQ. He really kept me thinking. Thank God for all the people whom i really respect, including my family whom You have given me.
byebye
you kept coming in to my dreams at night, unknowingly.
