Sunday, April 01, 2007 1:53 PM
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
Ah ma's in hospital.
what happen??
was admiited into ttsh on fri nite. got quite a shock when my father told me about it after i came home from alumni band.
HAIS.
so.
given my this kind of attitude.
i didnt went for the irritating piano concert. lols. (YEAH!)
of course is sae my ah ma in hospital got to visit her la.
and this excuse is true de hor. lols.
keep tao-bi-ing.
this is de 2nd time i skip such things liao.
first time is the trial exam.
now is the piano concert.
but i think its something cant be changed ba.
jus like my attitude now.
muahahaas.
someone talk me out pls. :)
so sat went to visit ah ma.
stayed for quite long there.
saw my cousins and aunties uncles later on. hahas
after an hour or so.
went to have dinner at mei mei's house.
oh wait.
i dont call her mei mei anymore.
its 24hr cry-er. lols.
oops.
she jus goes eehhh eeehhh eehhh for...
dunno how many hours.
duno when she became like tat.
at night.
stayed over at their house.
cos they sae wan go bai bai next day.
so.
we brought our sleeping attire.
lols.
the thing is.
we meet
4am at their house.
its for my another uncle auntie to come over.
muahahaa.=.=
by right is supposed to sleep early de.
but by left.
i slept at around 12+.
so 3+ must wake up.
hehe calculation time is here!! lols.
and of course staying over at a place that is not ur house.
is sometimes indeed a very difficult thing. hahas.
i type till here.
feel tat my typing style has changed. lols.
dunno wad i trying to sae. haha nvm.
funny thing is.
my uncle and auntie arrived earlier while we are still sleeping. so they are de ones being our alarm clocks.LOL.
wake up wake up. muahahahas.
and around 4+am in the morning.. off we go to baibai de.
first destination was.
choachukang cemetry............. .................. so dark and.....
finish all de bai bai around 7+am.
went to have breakfast together and then visit ah ma at hospital.
after tat..
of course is head home for sleep.
hahas.
so now i blog de time is i jus wake up tat time. sleep le but like no use.
eyes still like half open like tat. hahas.
sometimes when go hospital do visiting tat time..
will bu zhi bu jue de..
think of ah gong.
from the time he first enters de hospital at GH.
till de time he left us..
it is quite a long period of time tat dragged for years though he was in and out.
and of course.
jiu xiang dao de days during the funeral.
somethings maybe i wan to sae is tat..
i'm not close with him nor with my father side ppl..
but having stayed with him since young..
when he pass away tat time..
will jus feel sad and cry.
and during de wake.. at my hse downstairs..
i jus feel as if everyone suddenly like become very close and....
like we noe each other very well like tat..
but why issit like tat?
or issit supposed to be like tat?
ah gong already left us for abt a year le.
admit sometimes still quite miss him although i dont really talk much to him.
i still vividly remember the day he went.
the atmosphere at home..
the unwanted feelings...
and then de cryings...
i think i jus miss him.
write until here.
i myself feeling quite emo le. hahas.
wheres everybody?
all ASA ppl not online de..?
today april fools day.
at first wanted to play a trick..
but now i think suan le ba..
no one online..
wads de point.
may this group of us be together always :)
although i dunno wad will happen in de future.. or rather near future..
anyways de memories are all with u guys. :)
sometimes i still wan to sae this phrase.
No one cares no one knows no one feels.
and i think it suits perfectly into the situation each time i dun feel right.
i dunno.
not feeling good now.
and i think my blog is dying.
hahas.
byebye
de deserted place for my thoughts to be in. and i think it shall always be.
let it be then. :)
