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Thursday, November 02, 2006 4:56 PM

you used to be the reason, for my smile.

It's difficult to be yourself when u dunno wad he/she is thinking.
It's difficult to be yourself when he/she is not in their real personality.
It's difficult to open up yourself when others are not doing it.
It's difficult to see and judge others' personality just by watching what they do everyday.
It's not that easy.
It's difficult.

jus came back from sch..today ended ard 345pm..so straight away went home le..sometimes stoning helps alot. esp in the bus.REALLY. it lets u think through wad happen for the day and....reflect?

today when goin to sch.. irritating things jiu happen le. @ cp interchange. dun think i'm goin to sae it here. cos its..distracting. CONCENTRATE arhs..
in class sort of told hm some things i heard.....and we both became to feel weird. sometimes i really think that "its difficult to be yourself when you dunno wad he/she is thinking"..somehow these few days go school..feel tat some are jus not themselves. how should i sae..jus not in their usual close selfs. somehow u can feel it. serious. ok..nothing is wrong. perhaps the problem lies in me................................

k enough of such emo things..its thurs today. FRI is tml.!!. hahas. our meeting day. hehes. sooooo look forward to it..jus LOVE the time when we meet and gather with one and other..have fun tgt playing deprived-CHILDHOOD games..laughing together..and crap together...eat chicken together...it jus feel so great. GREAT to be with you guys. hahas. someone organise this time de meeting stuff ba..hahax. LOL.

i now feel like..

I had not laugh
-fufillingly,
-heartily,
-happily,
.
.
.
for a long time. for a really long time..

Sometimes u jus want to:
Laugh at what everybody is laughing at
And not jus show an entertaining laugh or smile
Laugh out loud
Go all the way to feel its funny

The feeling tat u feel aft tat is jus GREAT
LIGHT
HIGH!!!

HELLO. YOU SIAO ARHS.?
-_- -_-

ok enough enough. dunno wad to continue le. its already very long. LOL. goin to go fetch my bro le..
byebye

To myself : stop feeling fan le. stop my hu shi luan xiang.
think of the surrounding GREAT & WONDERFUL friends u have..
the vivo peeps
(jy steph zj ck sh stan eve xl)
cathy iris annie.
the common funny jokes we have and our very own funny "targets".

ok..i'm alright now... hahas.

byebye
see u guys REAL soon!! =)