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Wednesday, October 11, 2006 9:34 AM

you used to be the reason, for my smile.

back to blog some thoughts. well i didnt get to slp at all last nite. dunno why..jus turn here turn there. feel tired but jus cant get to slp..hmm issit because of the HAZE? hahax. of course NOT la..rubbish.

aft some things tat happen at home ytd..jus because i use com until 10++ he was already like screamin at me..sae wad ok u continue use..use until tonite dun need slp. ok lor. now i really didnt get to slp the whole nite. happy liao la. omg..at first still feeling very fustrated over tat matter..until the next morning i jus feel i cant stand it. i think i did it again..simply i noe crying is not the way but ur feelings cant help it. complained (sign-nine) to my mum sae i didnt slp the whole nite..and she was like immediately shoot back sae see la use com too much le..over usage. something like tat. WT*. spoilt my mood..and i went back my room at ard 6+ and continue staring into ceiling.

aft tat she came over again..forgot wad she said..tats when i began------and sae...is like i do housework...bring my bro to tuition..i DIDNT use comp whole day lor..but i jus dun feel tired. jus because i use until 10++ then he flare up..and WORST is the next morning he came to ask me wad i ask mummy..the tone as if NTH has happen.

GOSH. i simply dun understand. is the human thing, or wad.. when u get angry over something..or jus scold someone..will u still be able to slp and start to snore so fast..dont ppl, human like us think back and reflect? and the thing is u can treat it as if nth happen and talk to me nicely the next day..I DUN UNDERSTAND. i told her how come he like tat de...treat as if nth happen and talk to me nicely..mum said(in a comfort tone) tat shld be the way wad..jus forget it lor.

YES its true..but not all ppl can do it de same way wad..sometimes u can do it but not others can wad..is there any CORRECT way of handling..
tat is [to forget it and treat it as nth happen] or jus [calm down keep quiet let everything cool down]..

fan si ren le. but after she talk to me somehow feel abit better. but still not tat good. dunno wad i talking abt. nvm

i dun understand i dun understand i dun understand i dun understand i dun understand
byebye